Chaukeedaar is my nickname for the purpose of this blog and it is the hindi word for “guard”. Below you will find the reason why I chose this name. If there will be a good reason or need in the future for me to make my real name public, I will do so.
For all the following posts I think it might be useful to shortly tell my spiritual background in this current incarnation in the most open manner I can. Most of it tells of a rather average life, I guess.
I was born in a small western town in december 1972. I was raised in a moderate catholic tradition and I remember that we worker kids were quite sceptic in the religious education classes.
With about 6 years I run into the hands of some fundamental evangelists who were proselytizing among the children in our quarters. The wild stories about angels, demons and the like first found a very absorbing mind in myself, but soon I had problems with the strange pressure of their sectarian methods and I quit after a couple of weeks.
When I hit puberty, my father suddenly begun to show a new, tyrant side in regard of his Catholicism. I was forced to go to church up to when I left home with 20 years of age. So in church, during mostly very boring catholic sermons, I spent many hours of questioning christianity and the bible.
Long before my high school years it became clear that I was best in geometry. Later, physics and to some degree biology, became my core competence, which I used to build a materialistic view on everything and question any religious belief system. In retrospect this can easily be interpreted as backlash to the indoctrination by my more and more superstitious father.
My main influence of this time was a book called “The evolution of consciousness”, which was, for my age, a huge and very scientific reading. That time, I strongly tried to understand my existence as mere functions of my brain, but also kept the possibility of having a soul in focus. Up to the end of my twenties I was a strong agnostic, meaning that I tried to not believe anything but to search and keep any possibilities open.
I started to study history, which proved to me the pure cultural and man-made background of the bible in contrary to the perception of fundamentalists, that their holy book is God written. I also started my studies in information technology, which I both quit after 2 years and started to work as a software developer and analyst.
Turn around in my belief system
While reading Doctor Raymond A. Moody’s book “Life after Life”, which is a quite thorough investigation in near death experiences, I realised that this was the first time in my life that I found provable evidence that we definitely have a soul that outlasts our physical lives. I also read about his critics that argued from a materialistic, “brain is everything” standpoint and found that they could by far not explain what was going on in the reports of near death experiencers.
On my travels to New Zealand and Australia I read two books that I bought from a Krishna monk when I was a kid. I got these two books for 20 bucks (an amount I was asked to choose myself):
Die Schönheit des Selbst (could not find the name of the english version of this book)
These two books, which I consider my most important readings in my life so far, were written respectively translated by A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, a holy man in my eyes. The ancient vedan wisdom is covering many questions of existence, the universe, the soul, the worlds beyond, so much deeper and broader than any other religious book I know of. When I now meditate or send my gratefulness to the creator, I call him Krishna. That way I have a much more positive, friend-like image of him in my mind than to call him God, a word which is – sad enough – somehow contaminated by my catholic background.
On the more scientific side I occupy myself with universal theories and try to understand books like “Three Roads to Quantum Gravity” by Lee Smolin but also complete fresh approaches like Nassim Haramein’s Crossing the Event Horizon.
The realistic Alien Dream
On a sunday night during september 2010 I had a most realistic encounter in my dream of something invisible, but slightly distorted, standing right to me beside my bed during my sleep. It was only a matter of seconds until this something invaded into my mind very brutally and determined. I immediately and instinctively fought back by shouting out so loud the name of Krishna that it felt like all the universe must have heard it 😉
The violation of my free will and integrity stopped in a matter of a part of a second and I also awoke that very moment.
For fear I could hardly sleep the rest of the night. I was already working up my encounter and realized that in my dream I was dreaming of myself dreaming… Sounds complicated, but I can tell that the location where my bed and the “alien” was positioned in the dream was slightly turned from my bed in reality of about an angel of 30 degrees. I so rather think that this was no real encounter, but nevertheless started a new phase of investigation in my life.
The search for truth
That’s when I started to search the web for information about dreams and aliens/UFOs to find out with what I have been dealing with. Before I already was quite interested in the UFO phenomenon and read books by Erich von Däniken, Tony Dodd and the like. I watched almost every episode of The X Files and found they got more and more disturbing instead of clarifying. With the information that I have now I suspect that the creators of the X Files knew much more about what was and is going on than most people at that time did. Remember that the internet was still lifting off. Just research for Majestic 12/Majic 12/Majestic Trust/ M12/ MJ 12/MJ XII/Majority 12 and you have a first entering point to a vast area of evidence.
The alien/dream connection guided me to the web site of Eve Lorgen. If you have the same mindset I had, that all aliens are supreme beings and positive in their spiritual orientation, I suggest to read all of her articles. It should be obvious that being encountered by ET’s without your approval, being abducted, tested, mind manipulated and the like – there are thousands of testimonies on the web – this is NOT right and would never be done to a living soul by any positive entity of this universe and beyond. I then dug deeper and followed the information traces of the abducting “gray” aliens, their masters, the reptilian/draconians and orions, the world conspiracy of the illuminati around Bush senior and Prince Philip, and all down to the most negative spirit leading all of this, also called Lucifer.
Here are some of the more profound sources:
- Extraterrestrial Races on Galactic Diplomacy
- My Own Reptilian Encounter by Wes Penre
- The Dulce Book. If you found my side note about Lucifer above to be odd, please read the following chapter of the Dulce Book: Who Controls The Draconian Collective?
- Children of the Matrix on Bibliotheca Pleiades
- Illuminati exposed on MattMarriott’s Blog
- Government Covert War! on thewhatcherfiles.com
- Background information on the Bohemian Grove Club on infowars.com
At the moment I quite frankly do not know what of all this information about malevolent visitors I can trust or can be verified with the search power of a normal human being as I am. By the sheer overwhelming amount of sites, opinions and videos on the subject of these ET’s (or EBE’s, Extraterrestrial Biological Entities, as called by the program) this can all become quite frightening, which is always a bad mood for any soul.
After my dream, with all that information flooding my brain during the following two weeks, I also started to manoeuver myself into a position of constant fear and starting paranoia. I tried to fight it with meditation, praying, thinking positive, but only got rid of my fear when I found information about the positive, benevolent and helping entities around us, the Andromedans being in the first row of them. That’s when I found Alex Collier’s articles, videos and his online book “Defending Sacred Ground“. I feel the greatest thankfulness and love for Alex, a most honest and true person as I sense him, victimizing a quite life for ongoing extraterrestrial contacts with the ET’s from Andromeda and porting all the information to us.
Last but not least I would like to point out another important and very interesting person: David Wilcock. He always brings most surprising, but convincing, topics to mind, he is a great enrichment of my life, thinking and feeling. A good starting point into his work is his famous videos The 2012 Enigma and DAVID WILCOCK at the Project Camelot Awake and Aware Conference, Los Angeles, Sept 2009 .
Activation of my resistance
The recent repression against Wikileaks by the powerful (life threats against Julian Assange by US politicians, observation of the Wikileaks organization by the US, big business like Mastercard, Visa, PayPal, Swiss Post playing mad) showed me that a substantial part of the information about conspiracies might well be true. The past years and weeks also showed to have an increasing rate of truth being disclosed and people choosing their side on the negative/egoistic and positive/altruistic, as foreseen by prophets like David Wilcock. I find there is also much evidence that the scale is tipped towards the good which makes me feel excited and happy at this moment.
For me, the evil has shown its face too clearly these days, consider my resistance as activated.
Chaukeedaar, the guard
I honestly never attempted to visit a hypnotist for finding out who I was in my prior incarnations. All the time I just felt that the creator (or his higher dimensional helpers) had a reason to block this materialistic world so consistently from the spiritual world and higher dimensions, which includes remembering prior lives. But that is just my perception.
On the other hand, thinking of what I could have been or wanted to be in the following worlds, being a guard or protector for the creator just absolutely feels perfect for me.
Ok, I know this is a way too large start for a blog post, I promise the following, real posts will be shorter 😉